i slept 4 in the morning and had still had to be up early because i've got a friend coming over. just when i was getting into my sleep our phone rings. i ignored the call. i knew it would either be my sister in california or my brother in u.k.. although there were important matters i had to deal with them, still i preferred to enjoy my sleep.
the caller was just too stubborn and our phone kept ringing. it was almost 7am when my father answered the call. i overheard my father, and from the start of their conversation, i immediately assumed it was my brother. i anticipated that my father would call for me moments later and after a few blahs and blahs, i heard my name. despite my bed trying to pull me from getting up, i wasn't left much choice but to get out of it. the talk was about the package that i was supposed to send them.
we are used to it. it is like it has become a responsibility for us (for me most of the time) to buy stuff that they don't have there or things that they have there but are too expensive compared to their prices here. so much for that.
i went back to sleep after. and it was almost time for lunch when i woke up. i checked my phone and got a message from the friend who was supposed to come over and a text from my sister. it's a good thing i went back to bed because my friend just informed me that something came up with work and couldn't make it. on the other hand, my sister was on-line. i got no choice again but to get up (my waking time was usually 2pm! ehehe).
the conversation with my sister was just fine except when we were talking about money matters and my-not-having-any-means-of-providing-myself-with-money topic came up. i told her my friend is inviting me to visit her in h.k. before her contract ends. i told my sister that everything will be provided for me when i get there except for the airfare. and that just fired up everything. since i don't have a job because i had to do their nursing stuff, i told my sister that i'm still their burden and had to support me with my expenses including the h.k. airfare thing. it was meant to be a joke. she told me that my extra-curricular expenses are not their responsibility anymore. but i insisted that it was theirs as it was supposed to be a joke after all. then she defends her stand by telling me that i am being provided with food. it hit me. damn! i was mute for a while. i didn't know how to react. suddenly my heart just started beating fast and i wanted to cry.
then it just came out of my mouth... "i'm getting a job!"
i just realized that not everything will be provided for me just by doing things that they ask me to do. i need a back up plan. what if i fail the test? what if i don't get a visa? i won't let it end there. i'm exerting much effort to keep my life going. i won't waste "me" just because i didn't get to do what "they" want me to do.
the caller was just too stubborn and our phone kept ringing. it was almost 7am when my father answered the call. i overheard my father, and from the start of their conversation, i immediately assumed it was my brother. i anticipated that my father would call for me moments later and after a few blahs and blahs, i heard my name. despite my bed trying to pull me from getting up, i wasn't left much choice but to get out of it. the talk was about the package that i was supposed to send them.
we are used to it. it is like it has become a responsibility for us (for me most of the time) to buy stuff that they don't have there or things that they have there but are too expensive compared to their prices here. so much for that.
i went back to sleep after. and it was almost time for lunch when i woke up. i checked my phone and got a message from the friend who was supposed to come over and a text from my sister. it's a good thing i went back to bed because my friend just informed me that something came up with work and couldn't make it. on the other hand, my sister was on-line. i got no choice again but to get up (my waking time was usually 2pm! ehehe).
the conversation with my sister was just fine except when we were talking about money matters and my-not-having-any-means-of-providing-myself-with-money topic came up. i told her my friend is inviting me to visit her in h.k. before her contract ends. i told my sister that everything will be provided for me when i get there except for the airfare. and that just fired up everything. since i don't have a job because i had to do their nursing stuff, i told my sister that i'm still their burden and had to support me with my expenses including the h.k. airfare thing. it was meant to be a joke. she told me that my extra-curricular expenses are not their responsibility anymore. but i insisted that it was theirs as it was supposed to be a joke after all. then she defends her stand by telling me that i am being provided with food. it hit me. damn! i was mute for a while. i didn't know how to react. suddenly my heart just started beating fast and i wanted to cry.
then it just came out of my mouth... "i'm getting a job!"
i just realized that not everything will be provided for me just by doing things that they ask me to do. i need a back up plan. what if i fail the test? what if i don't get a visa? i won't let it end there. i'm exerting much effort to keep my life going. i won't waste "me" just because i didn't get to do what "they" want me to do.
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