ngayon

routinary.

stagnant.

nakakainip.

walang excitement.

nakakabobo.

nakakalungkot.

i know i've got a good job plus my family isn't pressuring me with anything, for now. maliban sa hindi ako committed ngayon, wala din akong problema sa lovelife. no one is bothering me. i don't have much money but i've got enough to finance my vices. simple and quiet life. it's how i've been wanting my life to be but somehow i feel there's something missing.

sa sobrang bored ko ngayon, i'm starting to review again! hehe...feeling ko kasi natutulog na mga neurons ko. ayaw kong mabobo ng dahan-dahan. i want to study again but i don't which course to take. and i think it would be impractical to ask my sister or my father to suppport me again to further study. crisis ngayon. and as much as possible, i'll be the one financing myself if ever i go back to school.

i love being a medtech but because it's somehow routinary i come to the point where i don't enjoy it anymore, lalo na pag walang gaanong patients at nasusubaybayan ko na lahat ng palabas sa tv. i don't feel satisfied with what i do. feeling ko i'm not putting into good use ung natutunan ko.

lovelife? hmmm... nagsawa na ako kakaemote sa lovelife ko. gusto ko naman, when i fall in love again, ung tipong masasabi ko talaga na masarap ang ma-in-love! at hindi puro sakit na lang sa ulo.

sana umasenso na ako. sana magkaroon ng kulay ang buhay. sana, malapit na.