and i'll remember

Last Wednesday was my mother's 12th year death anniversary. she died of cervical cancer but put up a good fight to survive it for 2 years.

i feel sad but not for the reason that she died when i was young. sure there were significant events in my life that i wish she could have been there, to witness my success, share my happiness and comfort me at my dullest moment. but i'm sad because when i think about her now, i don't have that much memory of her. probably i was too young then to cherish moments but still as the years add up, the less that i remember. i wonder what could have gone wrong.

and so now i made myself promise to enjoy every moment that passess by, either happy or sad. i don't want the time to come that somebody dear to me leaves and won't have anything to remember about the person. and i'll really try my best to be less forgetful. =)