"in the shower"

it's been a month since my last post and it's all because of an incident that made me feel that blogging wasn't meant for me. it was the night before i went back to baguio. my father and i attended a silver birthday party of a couple who are our distant relatives. the gathering made me realize something about life and relationship and i was too eager to share it through this blog. i am not really good in writing, so everytime i write articles here i'm trying so much to make it good. so there i was doing a story of the day's event, and just when i was about to publish it, i accidentally erased everything. as in EVERTHING! i had no idea how it happened. i tried ways to retrieve it but i failed. i was even expecting that it would be saved as a draft but unfortunately, nothing was left of it. i was crushed. i really put so much effort to it and it was gone. gone. gone. gone. and it hit me. blogging wasn't meant for me.

since then, i got so much stuff that i wanted to write about but opted not to. i was always thinking that i am not good at it and that i'm blogging just because almost everyone else is doing it. i lost interest.

a couple of days ago, i was in the shower (a very odd situation i guess to be realizing something) and i suddenly realized that i don't need to be a damn good writer to have my own blog. in the first place, i decided to make one because i like to share my thoughts and feelings in the best way i can. even if it's wrong grammer or i if keep using the same, simple words. i won't mind. i'll just keep on writing. just keep on writing.