12 August 2008

kanin

my bff was here for her one week vacation. we were supposed to go to mt. pinatubo, but due to the untimely bad weather we opted to go somewhereelse. actually we just went shopping at SM. pamatay diba? we enjoyed it anyway.

while shopping, we bumped into my former classmate in nursing. we said hi's and hello's. kamustahan ng kaunti tapos, tapos, magpapaalaman na lang biglang may pahabol na tanong siya sa akin.

C: ay ate, buntis ka???? (with matching smile pa siya at looking foward to a positive answer from me)

biglang nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa sobrang shock. i wasn't expecting that question. i answered back habang nakangiti din.

E: hindi! malaki lang talaga ang tiyan ko!

from then on parang isang traumatic experience sa akin iyon. alam mo yung feeling sa mga movies na paulit-ulit na narerecall at naririnig nung nalolokang character yung isang bad experience sa utak niya? ganon, ganun na ganon yung naramdaman ako. up to now!

i used to think that having a seemingly pregnant appearance was just okay. i thought it was just part of aging, and that women of my age are really prone to having baby fats! wehehehe! iba pala yung feeling kapag napuna na ng mga tao. nagiging issue na tuloy. so a few days later, after long nights of pondering what i should do, i decided that it's time that i should give attention to my body and health. attention that is not vain in nature. gusto ko pag tumanda ako, sexy pa rin ako! hehe! hindi nga vain di ba? well, i don't think there is anything wrong with it. gusto ko din healthy. i don't want to come to the point that i am old, and i'll have my blood cholesterol and sugar being checked weekly at 6 in the morning after naming magjogging ng mga amiga ko dahil nagpabaya ako nung younger years ko.

my solution was to work out as often as i can at no rice during dinner! at first i thought i couldn't survive one night without rice. there are times that i don't have rice at dinner pero yung purposely removing kanin sa pagkain ko, naku, iniisip ko pa lang nanghihina na ako. but i did it. almost a week na! yehey! i intend to do so hanggat kaya ko. pag dinner lang namin e. i'll starve kung pati sa lunch no rice policy ako.

1 comment:

blsm said...

haha! good luck! ako nanghihina talaga ako pag walang rice at least 2x a day!