06 August 2008

no possibilities?

i was trying to convince my cousin that a person should be open to possibilities. now i ponder, if how i've been open to these possibilities i'm telling her.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

i think i've been open as much as i could to these possibilities. i finished nursing kahit sobrang ayaw ko ito. yun palang effort na effort na talaga. i've learn to let go of the guys whom i thought i love so much. i realized that indeed there are many fishes in the ocean. but still i had no regrets with my past decisions regarding relationships and commitments. nalaman ko lalo how complex emotions can get and that we should not let this complexities affect how we make decisions in our lives. there should always be balance and a little bit of giving way sometimes. we can't always have things the way we want them to be, so we ought to know how to adjust and adapt to different situations.

i've accepted as well the possibility that even the closest friends will part ways sooner or later. dati kasi sobrang bigat sa loob ko na malalayo ako sa mga best friends ko but eventually natanggap ko that this would happen. 3 of my friends (my bff, my b, my guy best friend) were given the opportunity to work abroad. grabe...para akong nakipagbreak sa boyfriend ko. feeling ko nawalan ako ng kakampi. nakapagmove on din ako. yung bff ko once in a while, nakakauwi siya sa pinas and we make it a point to catch up and spend time as much as we can with each other. b went back here for good but was away for almost a year. ghie is hoping na makauwi ng pinas this year. i've learned to make new friends now without the fear of being apart from them. they say distance makes the heart grow fonder, kung hindi man applicable ito sa love life ko, i prove this to be true when it comes to my friends. it just proves how a friendship lasts despite being away from your friends.


careerwise, i'm trying my best to get a job that would pay well and at the same time it would be something i would enjoy. mukhang matatagalan pa before i'll find one but i wont lose hope. at habang wala pa yung pangarap kong trabaho, i'll just make the most out of what i could have now. yayaman din ako! hehehe

so there would always be possibilities. it's just up to us how we would deal with these opportunities that continuously come to our way. kailangan lang bukas ang ating mga mata. kailangan gising tayo so that we wouldn't be missing chances that might change our lives the way we always picture our life would be.

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